Hello Yogis.

(This newsletter contains some information that may trigger you if you have lost a loved one so do be mindful before reading).

Another month has passed and it’s gone in a whirlwind.

So much of life seems to be speeding up, filling up, changing and exhausting the little energy we do have.

I wanted to touch base with you all and just check in to see how you’re all doing? It would be lovely to hear back from some of you. Especially those I’ve not seen for a while. I know that you still read my newsletters because on the odd occasion that I’ve bumped into you, you’ve told me so. We are a wonderful community of like minded souls. I am so grateful for your presence and for the community we have built up.

I am still planning on running the Free Community Meditation evening that I mentioned a few newsletters ago. I have decided to run them via Zoom or Youtube live. I will let you know of a date as soon as possible. So do subscribe to this newsletter if you haven't already and make sure to confirm your subscription by checking the junk folder for the confirmation link.

A reminder too of the in-Person meditation evening that you can sign up for at Magazine Heaven.

I haven’t yet secured the final date but I do have a few people already subscribed so this will be going ahead in the near future.

Uncle Ollie.

As some of you are aware, there has been a family bereavement this month and I was honoured to have been by my uncles bedside as he passed. I chanted OHM and also recited the Lords Prayer. He used to be a priest many years ago but became more of a humanist in later years.

When we say goodbye to someone, it has an energetic effect on the very foundation and feeling of security we hold; and I have found for me that it has caused a re-evaluation of what really matters in life and also it has brought up some unexpected thoughts, reflections and realisations around past bereavements.

For me as Ollie passed, I felt the energy of spirit, of love, of support and of compassion around him in his last hours.

Being alone with him as he passed was a very powerful experience and it will stay with me for a long time.

I hope you don’t mind my taking some of your time to reflect on the beauty that I felt around his passing. I know so many people who are experiencing some kind of bereavement at this time and I wanted to offer some comfort from my experience.

As you know, I work every day with energy. I am also an intuitive and spiritual therapist.

This enables me to be able to perceive energy tangibly along with recognising the flow that is occurring within my own body.

My Uncle's final moments.

As I sat with Ollie, and his breathing changed, I observed a change in the atmosphere of the room. I felt like the energy was charged with a supportive presence, almost like the room was hugging the both of us. Ollie had been given something to relax him. He slowly slipped away as each breath became further apart from the one before. I could feel the density of the room and also I perceived the aliveness that was present around myself and Ollie. The bridge between the two worlds was right there with us.

We were both being supported by a force greater than ourselves.

I feel he slipped into the arms of a loving and supporting energy.

This feeling has stayed with me and I am now more comfortable around the process of dying than I have ever been before.

The unexpected insights.

Something I wasn’t aware would happen, after his death, was realising that his passing would bring up my past losses. My mum passed in July 2000. I am acutely more aware now than I was then of the impact her death had on everyone. I think back then, I slipped into a numb survival but in witnessing Ollie and the aftermath in having to manage his arrangements and in taking care of those who loved him, I was all of a sudden able to experience my true feelings over my mum’s passing. This was unexpected and although painful, was hugely healing.

When we suffer a loss, we don't always react in a way some may anticipate and there is no right or wrong response. 

Grief can show up many ways and there is no set time for healing. 

If you are struggling with grief, please do get in touch with someone who can listen and offer advice and support. 

My beliefs.

As you all know, I am a highly spiritual person and I believe there is far more beyond this material life and all of its trials, struggles and anxieties.

Although I have always felt the presence of greater forces around me, (I have been meditating since I was 12) I have never felt them in such a real way as I do now.

Life is filled with so much potential and we are all here to bring our unique gifts and insights to those around us.

Ollie has given me the gift of sight. Sight beyond death. An understanding, that love survives even after the physical body is no longer useful.

We truly are LOVE first and foremost.

Moving forward, I aim to bring this increased sense of love and compassion, awareness and trust that I have attained, into my work. I feel stronger and more connected that I ever have. I feel a greater sense of love and gratitude.

Please do reach out if you need to. I can be a friendly ear and I can also direct you to resources that may support you further if necessary.

Sending love and comfort to all of you who are facing challenging times right now. Reach out to one another and never feel alone. We are here for each other.

With love.

Carrie- xx